Stressed to the max...................

I have to say that I would rather work my butt off physically any day than deal with emotional stress. My friend made the decision today not to go on the cruise. Her husband is doing better, but has still not reached a point to where she could take off and relax instead of just worrying all the time she is away about how he was doing.

I totally understand where she is coming from, and completely support her decision, it is just her decision made me make a decision. First, she offered to move her family in here and watch the OPs for us so (my) Mister could go in her place. As much as I would have loved to do this, for the same reason she cancelled I could not go and have a good time worrying if she was doing okay with her husband and the OPs, etc... so we decided (my) Mister would stay home. Then we explored my youngest going in her place. Up and down, thinking of all the things that that would entail. My youngest decide that as much fun as it would be to go, she really needed to stay home and go to school as she had missed three days last week being ill (is she responsible or what? I think I might have said screw school). So that only left me deciding to go by myself, or to cancel along with my friend. (P.S. This is why I get trip insurance so that cancelling can be an option.)

(my) Mister wanted me to still go and to have a good time as he is so very loving and supportive of me. I had to weigh how selfish doing this would make me feel. Regardless whether or not I cruise, I would still have to spend extra money on a plane ticket to get down to the race. Bottom line, I decided to go ahead and go by myself, selfish or not.

Imagine this, five days in which you didn't have to speak to a soul unless you want to, can do exactly what you want without regard to anyone Else's feelings, can do exactly what YOU want to do and ONLY what YOU want to do, oh ya! Did I mention the no responsibility part for FIVE ENTIRE DAYS?...Pretty much my idea of heaven, though I know I wouldn't want a steady diet of it for long. But that is the beauty of it...With my personality, if I want company I will just go introduce myself to someone and hang out with them until I want to go do something else.

I am really feeling that "everything happens for a reason" feeling, and totally okay with (and excited about) my decision to cruise alone.

But before I relax and get totally excited I need to put out one more little fire. Tomorrow is the day we get to have lunch with Dave Ramsey and hear him talk. Problem is I thought it started at noon and it starts at eleven so I have to magically come up with someone willing to do OP care for an hour before my assistant is scheduled to arrive. Wish me luck!