A question to ponder.............................

This morning, out of the blue, the following question popped into my head:

Do you want what you want or do you tell yourself what you want is what you think you can get?

For example:

Do I say (and believe) that I would never want to be in my twenties again because I really don't, or have I convinced myself I feel this way because I know being twenty again is not an option?

Do I limit the things that come into my life because I consciously (or unconsciously) think they are out of my reach? How do I know that I don't want more than I have? What am I potentially missing out on by being content?

I feel so happy and blessed where I am right now. I don't "feel" at all like I am settling, and except for isolated moments of stress I wouldn't change a thing about the way my life is unfolding. This doesn't mean I am stagnant, or that I don't feel the need or desire to continue to grow and change. In fact, I look forward to doing so. I consciously invite new things into my life on a regular basis. Is there anything wrong with being happy in the moment while I wait for the next moment to arrive?

Having spent HUGE chunks of adulthood wishing my life away for various reasons I have to answer that last question with a resounding NO!

I have worked hard to get to a place in my heart where I can accept that things don't have to be perfect/complete/ideal to be enjoyed and appreciated. There is something of value in every single thing and the specific value of everything is often variable from person to person. The value of something IS always subject to change.

We love to make circumstances in our life bad or good when they often just are. Problems occur only when we fight the change instead of allowing it to happen in an environment of love and with a loving heart and nature. When we fight (anything) we end up missing out on (all of some of) the lesson it has for us.

So instead of freaking out with thoughts about what big picture the question might be telling me, I have invited the question to stick around for as long as it likes, make itself at home in my head, and let me know if it needs anything, kind of how I treat welcome house guests. I am too busy loving my life to spend lots of time focusing on one solitary question. If it has something of value for me it will just have to voice what that is, LOUD and CLEAR.